Whats next?

I haven't seen Dino in 2 weeks I guess he decided to give me my space after the whole bedroom incident. I have to say though this has been the most peaceful and most relaxing 2 weeks of my life. No drama, no stress, no nothing but peace and quiet other than his constant phone calls, which I refuse to answer, because I have nothing more to say to him. Its not that I am shocked that he was cheating I already knew that but its the fact that he was bold enough to cheat in our home but even worse in our bed. But on a brighter note I ran into some old friends from high school, Carter still looks fine as ever. I can't believe I left him for Dino... That was clearly a bad choice. I also saw Milo, Lilly, and Paul Neumen surprisingly, I never thought I would see him hanging with that crowd again. On top of that I had a doctors appointment today I am officially 20 weeks pregnant, healthy and having a BABY GIRL!! I am so excited!! At first the idea of becoming a mother was scary, but now I think i'm ready for this I only wish you, dad, and Alaina were here to enjoy this with me. I know y'all are in a better place, its been 12 years, but it still doesn't get any easier. Who knew at 14 a girl could lose her whole world. Maybe if y'all were here I wouldn't be with Dino because you and dad wouldn't have had that at all. Y'all didn't like him when he was 17 and y'all definitely wouldn't like him at 28. I have really been thinking about whats next for me in my life. I can't bring a child into a broken home. I got to do somethings for me and my child and the first is getting away from Dino.

Big problems to even bigger problems

I know its been a while since I have talked to you but my life has been real crazy with Dino and his drama. Let me see what have you missed... I have had to bail Dino out of jail a few times, had to fight with him about his mom coming to visit next month, found out Dino was cheating on me with a stripper from this place he frequents, and if all that isn't bad enough.... I found out i'm pregnant about a month ago, but of course Dino hasn't even noticed. Other than his stupid "You're getting kind of fat" comments I don't think he has the slightest clue, and i'm 18 weeks.How have I dealt with his stupid, inconsiderate ass all these years. But since he hasn't noticed yet I don't plan on telling him anytime soon, I want to see how long it takes him to pick up on it. At least he has been pretty even tempered lately. So I went to Watershed Heights earlier to see the renovations and that was pretty interesting. There was a carnival that was questionable. While I was there I thought I should check on pastor Dan since I haven't seen him in years but when I went to see him he wasn't home. As I was leaving I saw him talking to some guy near the carnival but the baby had me about to pee on myself and I refused to go back into Watershed heights to use the restroom so I zoomed home. Only to get there and find the surprise of Dino and his little whore in our bed. I freaking lost it. All I could do was cry. Although I hate Dino I still love him he is after all my child's father. So now he is standing outside the door begging me to come out. I can't because if I walk out of this bathroom now I might kill him and I refuse to have my baby in jail cause of his dumb ass. So for now i'm stuck in the bathroom, Hopefully he takes that whore and leaves. I can't keep doing this to myself.